I’ve been hurt too many times…
too much to count
I’m scared,
because I’m starting to feel cold inside
To have no feelings for another
is the most scariest thing to experience
That’s why I keep trying so hard
I keep coming back for more punishment,
for more heartbreak
Because to lose that feeling of caring
caring for someone…
means to die inside
Losing all the wonderful qualities
of one’s self –
Lost forever in a world of darkness.
My Friend…
Today you’ve left a space in my heart
a void that not anyone can make
To do this one has to unselfishly give of one’s self
You did just that and more
You gave yourself freely,
shown your love openly and unbiased,
gave your ear for someone to bend
and comforted a cold and lonely body
with your warmth and tenderness
Your companionship is unmatched
and your heart is forever captured
right here in my private treasure chest
where your love is kept safe
until it is ready to be freely shared
to the one who’s worthy and unselfish,
the one who will learn as well as accept
the gift of unconditional love
But until that time comes
my heart will not be whole,
for the space that was left
will be a most tremendous task to fill
Because the love that I’ve received
is but one of a kind
that is unique only to you,
…My Friend.
When I sit home all alone at night
and dream of what might be,
of finding that special someone to love
someone who’ll care for me
I look into the eyes of strangers that I meet
hoping to find my true love,
but what I really long to see
is an angel sent from heaven above
To find an angel here on earth
is a most difficult task to do,
but if the heart is pure as gold
a path’ll be shown straight and true
To follow this path is long and hard
more often vague than clear,
but if a feeling grows within one’s self
it proves that love is near
When one encounters this special feeling
they never take it at a glance,
for love is a difficult game to succeed at
it’s often left up to chance.
There were many times I wished and dreamed
while lying in my bed
of a girl so beautiful, so perfect
like in the books I so often read
I’ve tried and tried
I’ve looked so hard
to find a girl for me
but many times when I’ve tried too hard
I wound up in misery
Till one fine day you came along
you woke me from my dream
you answered all my wishes
made my cold heart turn to cream
Your pretty face, your caring smile
your soft and gently way
you’ve filled a space within my heart
gave hope for a brighter day
On this special day, I give to you
love, support and care
qualities you graciously gave
the traits we now commonly share
I’ve never experienced such happiness
from a girl with a heart so true
to the only girl who stole my heart
My dearest – I Love You!
“As you look towards the future
forget not the past
Savor the present
for in your memories they’ll last
There’ll be times in life
where things may be unclear,
just grit your teeth, head straight forward
and show you have no fear
There will also be days
when everyone brings you down,
so just remember my smile
like that of a cheerful clown
Remember the good times
shared between you and me,
and spread all of the happiness
to everyone you see.”
There once was at time
when I doubted myself
confidence lost
hidden away on a shelf
Could I do what I say?
Will it turn out all right?
Will my life get on course
before I lose sight?
When all was lost
with my life turning blue
an angel on high
carried my heart straight to you
To sing a song of love
From my heart the words need to be true
To do anything in this world
I need the love from you
You helped me to see
what was already there
You opened up my eyes
with your heart that you had shared
You made me believe
that things can come true
You opened a feeling deep inside
a special gift from you
The feeling of love from within my heart
awakened, blossomed, it grew
Beauty unlocked for all to share
you set my life anew
Now I sing a song of love
from my heart the words are true
I can do anything in this world
as long as it’s for you
The magic that has found us
the love between you and me
One heart that now binds us
with you I’ll always be
Together we sing a song of love
our hearts forever true
Anything in this world I’ll do
as long as it’s for you.
I’ve yearned too hard
I’ve cried for you
You were always there
when I needed you
Now that you’re gone
My heart’s broken in two
One half is of happiness
the other – a gift from you
You taught me how to live and learn
to smile when you’re blue
You’ve given my heart that special gift of love
one that’s grand and true
The feeling of love
you had given outright
The wonders of heaven
I shared with you tonight
I’ve found my love
with you, it’s true
the gift I’ve received
the special love of two
As I stand alone and think of you
my thoughts soar high above
My heart calls out for yours…
and sings this song of love
The feeling of love
you had given outright
This feeling of heaven
I felt tonight
I had found the love
that set my heart anew
the gift that you had given me
the love that came from you.
Our common interests
that we both like to share,
our little talks
to show that we care
Our poetic writings,
very creative in style
our message of importance –
to have a warm friendly smile
Our insight to life
is as keen as can be,
we look for the goodness
in everyone we see
Our zest for life
is seen in what we do,
we try to brighten the day
to put a big smile on you
We do not let failure
get the best of the day,
we try to find the solution
somehow, some way
We are compatible –
both you and I,
in the things we do
and in the things we try
A girl like you
is really hard to find
so trust in love
cause we’re – Two of a Kind.
My life had no meaning
it was desolate and blue,
darkness consumed me
until I met you.
The times spent with you
gave me a feeling so great –
it felt like paradise
had just opened its gate.
Your warmth and your kindness
that you eagerly gave,
my belief in your love –
my life you have saved.
Your faith in me was strong
through the good and the bad,
you gave of your love
made me appreciate what I had.
Your lovely voice,
your warm tender smile
the presence of your beauty
makes love all the worth while.
This feeling for you
is so hard to convey,
to pick one true meaning
would be unjustly to say.
My spirit soars
when your presence is near,
“YOU”…the love of my life
gives me reason to cheer.
To have you as a partner in life
is a great honor for me,
and eternity in heaven
is what our lives will always be.
I can’t believe that one year ago I started a blog…ME of all people. At the behest of my manager, Alexia, I needed to create a blog site to promote myself on social media. She’s such a savy person when it comes to that so who am I to argue.
When I set up my journey on creating my site, I was a complete novice. No experience whatsoever. There were times when I felt like I needed to hire someone to do this for me so that I can skip all the clutter and get to the details of just writing.
I am so glad that I opted to do this on my own. It was rough at first but soon I got the hang of the process it took to set up a site I could call my own. Yes, you can truly “teach an old dog new tricks.” I am in no way an expert yet but I’m still in the process of learning all the intricacies to fixing my blog site to get it to how I want.
Once I got something up, the question was what was I going to write. I had no clue as to what direction I was going to take. I perused other sites and soaked in what they had to offer; soon I got to thinking that I should just write about whatever I felt like I needed to convey to anyone who would stumble across my site.
I wrote about anything and everything, my experiences, my family, my children, my pets, being a screenwriter, writing in general, poetry, what it took to be a writer, about life, pet peeves, being an eternal optimist, trying to be positive and so on and so forth.
It didn’t matter what I wrote I just needed to write. And I made a promise that I would write something each week regardless if it was eloquent or rough around the edges. I just needed to write. I made this promise to myself and I intended to keep it.
Well, it’s been a year and I’m proud to say that I’ve written something every week. I’ve kept my promise and will continue to do so until I decide otherwise. In the scheme of things, I felt like being a blogger was therapeutic. I got to sound off about a lot of things and was most satisfied that I got to share it…even if no one read it. Writing was writing after all and I am trying to better myself in this craft that I love.
I’m happy I started this journey and am truly excited to see where I’ll be next year. The future is unwritten and I’m looking forward seeing how my site will grow. I am honored to be one of the millions of bloggers in this world expressing myself through my site.
Midlife, Maniacal & Me 