A piece of my heart
is all I could give
when we were alone
For you belonged to another
you were never mine to own
My love for you
never fully shared
Just a piece of my heart
to show that I cared
If I could’ve opened my heart
I would’ve given you so much
But the key to your love
was never mine to touch
A piece of my wish
is my only gift to you whenever we’re apart
May your love live forever
may happiness be in your heart.
Wake up with a smile
it’ll brighten your day,
the more bigger the smile
the happier you’ll stay
This little phrase
is something I would normally tell
but early one morning
a new thought rang a bell
I woke up one day
with the early morning light
and saw a little bird singing –
it was a most beautiful sight
This bird outside my window
was most happy and carefree,
it whistled and it chirped
as loud as can be
This little bird
gave a new meaning to my life –
“Let happiness rule your day
not your worries, not your strife”
As I continued to watch,
the bird left without a trace
leaving me with a memory
and a message in its place
So I ventured into the day
with a smile and good cheer
reassuring myself
that the bird of happiness is near
I did my best throughout the day
to spread happiness around,
this new trait of the little bird
in me now is found.
The holiday season is well underway and a lot of kids are eagerly counting down the days till Christmas. That age of innocence is clearly apparent and I often reminisce about my own experience. But alas, we all get older and sometimes our focus tends to gravitate toward age appropriate matters.
My kids, who are now young teenagers, reminded me of this. Yes, of course, they still look forward to Christmas but the enthusiasm is not as vibrant as it was when they were in their single digit age.
The main thing that concerns them the most is when does Christmas vacation start and how long it will be. They can’t wait to take a break from all that studying and let loose…or for others, just chill and do nothing. Granted, we all hated going to school and valued those precious times away from academia.
I recalled the time when I was their exact age and fully remembered what I was doing leading up to the start of winter recess. Counting down the days, hours, minutes and seconds; time ironically moves extremely slow when we’re young and somehow speeds up the older we get. Go figure that.
As I was thinking about this, a short poem came to mind that kind of summed up how I felt at my children’s age and I’d like to share it.
Here I am at school today
feeling down and oh so blue
I dream of being hard at play
in the hopes it will come true
Running, skating, playing ball
is what I’d like to do
but here I am thinking – that’s all
just stuck here right at school
To dream, to dream, only to dream
waiting for school to end soon
“My God! My watch! Oh gads I’ll scream!
I can’t believe it’s only noon!!!”
Some write songs
of love old and new,
others write books
of love so grand and true
But songs and books cannot describe
the real true meaning of love,
a love that comes from inside
From within the heart
a certain feeling grows,
it cannot be hid
for through your action it shows
It’s seen in the eyes
of both the young and old
It’s shown through their smile
that’s pure and gold
If everyone had one wish
they’d probably say,
“Love stay with me forever,
never go away.”
A twinkling in your eyes I see
in the darkness of the night,
all hurt and pain has left me now
cause I’ve finally seen the light
I don’t know how I’ve gone this far
without really knowing you,
my life has suddenly taken a turn
everything seems so new
In your eyes I see a vision,
in my heart I know it’s true
this feeling that grows from deep within
is all because of you
You’re all that I’m longing for
You’re all my dreams come true
My life would be so complete
If I could spend forever with you
It’s amazing how love really works
it’s astonishing to see,
You, out of all the strangers in the world
that was truly meant for me
Love is purely magical
in each and every way,
If my heart had a mind of its own
this is what it’ll say:
“Do you believe in magic?
I hope you really do,
cause the love that stirs from deep within
is all because of you
No part of me will let you go
You’re all my dreams come true
My life would be so complete
If I could spend forever with you”
I believe in love because
it’s special and so true,
cause it found it’s place within my heart
and I owe it all to you
I’ll always be there, by your side
You’re all my dreams come true
My love will you let me spend –
Forever With You.
I’ve been hurt too many times…
too much to count
I’m scared,
because I’m starting to feel cold inside
To have no feelings for another
is the most scariest thing to experience
That’s why I keep trying so hard
I keep coming back for more punishment,
for more heartbreak
Because to lose that feeling of caring
caring for someone…
means to die inside
Losing all the wonderful qualities
of one’s self –
Lost forever in a world of darkness.
My Friend…
Today you’ve left a space in my heart
a void that not anyone can make
To do this one has to unselfishly give of one’s self
You did just that and more
You gave yourself freely,
shown your love openly and unbiased,
gave your ear for someone to bend
and comforted a cold and lonely body
with your warmth and tenderness
Your companionship is unmatched
and your heart is forever captured
right here in my private treasure chest
where your love is kept safe
until it is ready to be freely shared
to the one who’s worthy and unselfish,
the one who will learn as well as accept
the gift of unconditional love
But until that time comes
my heart will not be whole,
for the space that was left
will be a most tremendous task to fill
Because the love that I’ve received
is but one of a kind
that is unique only to you,
…My Friend.
There were many times I wished and dreamed
while lying in my bed
of a girl so beautiful, so perfect
like in the books I so often read
I’ve tried and tried
I’ve looked so hard
to find a girl for me
but many times when I’ve tried too hard
I wound up in misery
Till one fine day you came along
you woke me from my dream
you answered all my wishes
made my cold heart turn to cream
Your pretty face, your caring smile
your soft and gently way
you’ve filled a space within my heart
gave hope for a brighter day
On this special day, I give to you
love, support and care
qualities you graciously gave
the traits we now commonly share
I’ve never experienced such happiness
from a girl with a heart so true
to the only girl who stole my heart
My dearest – I Love You!
“As you look towards the future
forget not the past
Savor the present
for in your memories they’ll last
There’ll be times in life
where things may be unclear,
just grit your teeth, head straight forward
and show you have no fear
There will also be days
when everyone brings you down,
so just remember my smile
like that of a cheerful clown
Remember the good times
shared between you and me,
and spread all of the happiness
to everyone you see.”
I not the best writer in the world, but I’m certainly not the worst; after 25 years of writing poems, children stories, short stories and screenplays, I believe that I’ve at least developed my craft of writing to the point where I’m able to express my thoughts.
I always make an attempt to write every day; no excuses whatsoever. As a writer, I make it a point to write in a succinct manner where my thoughts and words are easily understood by the reader and frames the piece of writing with my unique voice, style, heart and soul.
It doesn’t matter if my words are eloquent or simple, as long as the reader connects with what I’ve written then that’s all that matters. Good writing is something that’s both memorable to the writer and reader alike. 
With all that said, my one downfall of being an aspiring writer is when I have to correspond with a fellow co-worker, friend or family member via e-mail.
Every time I’m trying to send a message to them, my writer’s mindset kicks in and it feels as if I’m trying to compose something that should be considered for the Nobel Prize in Literature.
What I’m writing could be a response for a party invitation, updating what’s been going in my life to a friend or family member or telling the co-worker a status of a project. It should be simple to reply back, right?
HELL NO!!! For me it’s complete anxiety to the infinite degree!!!
I’m brainstorming what I should write, selecting words that must be perfect, constructing sentences so that it’s a bit creative and humorous and making sure that brevity is enforced.
“Why can’t I write it like I speak it?! Isn’t that good enough?!” For the rest of the world – YES! For me…it’s just not sufficient enough…sigh.
I type something down and then I rewrite it to the point of exhaustion; to top that off, before I hit “SEND”, I have to carefully read it to make sure that I conveyed what needed to be said correctly.
I take something that’s super simple to do and turn it into a monumental task of outrageous proportions. It’s totally, freakin’ ridiculous what I go through. (Don’t get me started on Birthday, Sympathy or Wedding cards…that another beast in itself.) Again, maybe it’s the writer’s mindset or maybe it’s just me being a bit too anal, I kinda like to think it the former.
Anyway…anytime I’m tasked with writing anything I, subconsciously or intentionally, am trying to make sure my words come across to the recipient in a way that makes them realize that a “writer” wrote this.
Midlife, Maniacal & Me 