When I was younger, I’ve felt like I was never successful in all of my life. It’s mainly because I was an indecisive person who worried too much. I wandered around but could never break out of my little world. I used to make ambitious plans during the night but continued to grumble about my daily grind the next morning. It got to the point that I was fed up with my place in life and decided that I needed to make a change. I wasn’t going to wait for the next day, I needed to act immediately. I made a commitment to to stay focused on whatever endeavors I pursued, maintained my demeanor of perseverance and became eternally optimistic in everything. In short, I learned that it all starts with you. If you don’t like something, do something about it. Make a change in your life, “you” need to be the one to initiate it. Don’t wait for tomorrow or possible things that may happen. Do something about it. Dream big, there’s no limit to your potential. It’s your life, live it the way you would like it to be. Start now and make a change for the better.
Looking back on everything I’ve done in my life, whether it be good or bad, there are definitely things that I would’ve done very differently. But I guess that’s how we all would feel if given the power of hindsight. Some would say that what we did was supposed to happen in order for us to learn a lesson or set us on the right path to where we’re going to end up.
For someone like me who’s a control freak, especially when it comes to my choice of jobs, it’s truly frustrating when you’ve made a bad choice. After making that critical decision, whether intentionally, hastily or ill-informed, it feels like an eternity trying to get my life back on track. Everything seems to be in overdrive just to get back to normalcy; but now every turn, every move I make I second guess myself.
“I shouldn’t have done this!”
“What the hell was I thinking?!”
“What have I gotten myself into?!”
“Am I going to get out of this jam? And when!?”
All these thoughts run a continuous loop in my head and I beat myself up over making that error in judgement. We’re all human, but I have high expectations of myself and feel like the whole world just came crashing down on me. I feel trapped with no option in sight.
We talk to our family and friends about our predicament to get their advice but it turns into a therapy session where we pour our hearts out in hopes of a quick and easy solution. We’ve all been there…and we’ll all go there again.
The one thing that keeps me afloat is the prospect of something better on the horizon. Yeah, I don’t know how long it’ll take to reach that destination but the idea of finding something better keeps that hope alive. AND I always hold out for hope! I always err on the side of positivity. Why? Because at my lowest point, that’s all I can do. It’s much better than the alternative; I can’t just give up. Throwing in the towel and being resigned to the fact that I failed somehow is not an option.
There is always a way out of every predicament I put myself in. Strength and faith is all I need to have to know that it’ll all work out in the end. Nothing’s impossible to overcome, I just have to be willing to take the first step forward…AND I just did.