When life throws you a curve, what do you do? We are faced with making many decisions on a daily basis, some minor, others life-changing ones. How do you decide which course of action to take? Do you rush into it with emotions running high? Do you take a step back and think things through?
Lately, I’ve been pondering the decisions that I’ve made within the past several months. Were they good ones…well it’s hard to say. From my perspective, it might’ve been the wrong ones. I think the past several decisions were based purely on emotions and in hindsight I should’ve taken a breather before jumping headlong into a predicament that exacerbated what was already a stressful situation.
As always, I live and learn. My comfort is in the fact that I have the power to do something about it and that it’s not something that’ll last forever. No matter how bad the situation I’m in, I’ll find a way to resolve it. I just need to look for the little signs that God has placed for me to find. Once I can identify them and learn from it then it’ll be when I can move on. Life is way too short to just give up and be content with where you are.
Granted I’ve made mistakes that led me to where I am today, but I have faith that this is the path that God designed for me. I am eternally hopeful that this will ultimately lead me to where I was truly meant to be. As long as I keep the faith, stay positive and persevere, I’ll be just fine.
Looking back on everything I’ve done in my life, whether it be good or bad, there are definitely things that I would’ve done very differently. But I guess that’s how we all would feel if given the power of hindsight. Some would say that what we did was supposed to happen in order for us to learn a lesson or set us on the right path to where we’re going to end up.
For someone like me who’s a control freak, especially when it comes to my choice of jobs, it’s truly frustrating when you’ve made a bad choice. After making that critical decision, whether intentionally, hastily or ill-informed, it feels like an eternity trying to get my life back on track. Everything seems to be in overdrive just to get back to normalcy; but now every turn, every move I make I second guess myself.
“I shouldn’t have done this!”
“What the hell was I thinking?!”
“What have I gotten myself into?!”
“Am I going to get out of this jam? And when!?”
All these thoughts run a continuous loop in my head and I beat myself up over making that error in judgement. We’re all human, but I have high expectations of myself and feel like the whole world just came crashing down on me. I feel trapped with no option in sight.
We talk to our family and friends about our predicament to get their advice but it turns into a therapy session where we pour our hearts out in hopes of a quick and easy solution. We’ve all been there…and we’ll all go there again.
The one thing that keeps me afloat is the prospect of something better on the horizon. Yeah, I don’t know how long it’ll take to reach that destination but the idea of finding something better keeps that hope alive. AND I always hold out for hope! I always err on the side of positivity. Why? Because at my lowest point, that’s all I can do. It’s much better than the alternative; I can’t just give up. Throwing in the towel and being resigned to the fact that I failed somehow is not an option.
There is always a way out of every predicament I put myself in. Strength and faith is all I need to have to know that it’ll all work out in the end. Nothing’s impossible to overcome, I just have to be willing to take the first step forward…AND I just did.